It’s less than a month to my 27th birthday. Unfortunately, my 26th year of life has been a beast. I have several car incidences (crash, break in, break down), school realities (failure, probation, dismissal, re- admittance), life/lifestyle disagreements(mom, move, job, weight, men, break down). Overall, I’m exhausted with the direction my life is going. I know by comparison, my life is pretty blessed, I have a home (for now), I’m healthy (everything works!), and I have a job (eh). I just don’t feel like being here anymore, I want to move and get settled in my life, I want to finish school and be done with it. I don’t want to work, I have things to learn and work is just getting in the way! I feel trapped and I know I’m trapped, so I try to make the best of the situation, but the best still isn’t good enough.
Sorry, I needed to get that out.
My goals for September so far :
- Post at least one positive thing everyday
- Keep up my homework for all my classes
- Exercise everyday
- Try not to cry for the rest of the month
- Keep in touch
- Eat healthy
- Work on the business
- Go somewhere different for my birthday
No coffee since Tuesday, I’m still ok. I have avoided the caffeine fueled frothy goodness for two days. Now I need to add to that list, no cookies and no vending machines. I think I just exchanged vices. 3 diet goals to next Tuesday. It hasn’t been too bad yet, but we’ll see my attitude on Monday.
I got a call from my realtor about a woman interested in renting my house, but she has two rotweilers. First I had the couple with the pitbull and now this lady. Doesn’t anyone have dogs without vicious reputations anymore – like a poodle or a cocker spaniel.
After a really good look in the mirror, it became more obvious to me to that I really need to make a health goal. I am lacking in the discipline department, so I am starting out small. No coffee for the rest of the week. No Starbucks or Panera or any other random coffee place that may cross my path. No coffee. I can do this. This will not only cut down on unecessary calorie intake, but also save me some cash. A positive to effect for my money goal. Exercisewise, I would like to go to the gym everyday this week, but I’m a little behind in school work due to my car getting broken into and all my homework being stolen. I just received the books that I had to reorder to complete my assignments, so I better get cracking on those this week. To even have time to go to the gym I would have to wake up super early and go before work, which I haven’t worked up the actual gumption to do yet. That will be my next week goal, but for now let’s just tackle the coffee.